I will be baptized this year! I will officially be a member of the Catholic church. I was always meant to be a Catholic, I realize that now. I look at the little girls in their uniforms at the school adjacent to the church with such joy. As a convert Catholic (as opposed to a cradle Catholic), I find myself mentally taking in my Catholic faith with the maturity of a adult and my soul absorbing it with the acceptance that a pious little Catholic girl would, the same ones I saw as I would go to adoration.
Sometimes I am glad that found my place at this time. I don't take anything for granted. I am proud of my conversion. I carry inside of me a little parochial school girl who deeply loves Jesus and Our Lady, one who no doubt would have been the altar girl who prayed her rosary everyday. I also a carry an adult who has acquired hard earned knowledge that just may be wisdom. She too has absorbed the Catholic faith.
There is so much I need to resolve inside of me, including how my relation with God fits into all of this. I have, sadly, put my wants and desires over his will of late. I have been doing the terribly wrong thing of asking God to answer me instead of going to him and finding answers. It's a tough process doing it God's way and I struggle with it. However, I am comforted by the fact that I have a deep and profound love for the Eucharist, for the aspects of the Catholic faith that bring me closer to my creator and the healing I find the rosary.
If there is one thing that can help me heal from 2010, it will be my Catholic faith and the love I pump into it.
Laura Ingraham is one of my favorite political commentators. She, too, is a convert. I can also tell that, like me, she feels that deep love and pride in her Catholic faith same I have felt. On her website she sells the 4 way medal (which she always wears herself and the proceeds go to Little Sisters of the Poor). I can't wait to start wearing mine once I have received Confirmation.
My 4-way cross, of course, will say "I'm Catholic-please call a priest." It's like a Catholic version of a medical bracelet!
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