Amber on Teen Mom

I love watching the show on MTV called Teen Mom. It is a story about 4 girls who had babies far too young and are growing into women very quickly. I, as well as others who love to watch the show, are inspired by the courage of these girls, Maci, Catelynn, Farrah and Amber.

Maci and Catelynn are the most lovable ones, I think. Maci is so mature and responsible while Catelynn is strong, selfless and courageous to put her baby up for adoption. Farrah, too, is becoming such a devoted mom, so strong.

A lot of people think Amber is plain nuts and a totally unfit mother. She is definitely the least popular of the four for the obvious reasons of verbally bashing and beating her daughter's father in front of her daughter and just in general being whiny and unmotivated.

I will admit Amber is hardly my favorite either but I can certainly understand the anger she has inside of her. I can understand how her depression and insecurity make it hard for her to want to achieve her goal of getting a GED. I can feel somebody who has a really low self esteem, which hurts everybody around her--not just her.

As somebody who has dealt with depression since I was 13, I can tell she has clinical depression and anxiety. As a pharmacist, I can usually tell before you come to the counter what you are being prescribed for it, too. I could tell she was getting downers, namely, benzos (xanax, Klonipin, Ativan or the like). I worry about her getting hooked on them.

I am disgusted by her behavior and it is harder to feel bad for that person when a small child is involved. Regardless, I can't help but see a really troubled woman. I hope she can find it somewhere inside of her to find peace inside of her for her daughter's sake.

My solace in God took away so much anger that I had inside of me. It made me peaceful in ways I never thought I could be. It made me mature in ways that people who knew me before I found God wouldn't even know that was who I was. I am nothing like I was in my early twenties. I wish I could have been the same person then because I would be so much more ahead in my career. I wish I knew better. I see children raised in church and get communion and my hearts aches for a childhood such as that. :(

I hope Amber sees that can be her, too. She will regret her past same I as do, but the path she will have created will make it easier for her not too look back quite as much. I pray for her and her family. They will need to get through a lot.